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hi. currrently listening to chinese people performing their rituals i think. i hear snare drum, crash cymbols and maybe some metal kinda claves, and also toms.

toms part, in 4/4 time signature. 3 crotchets, 1 rest. and repeats for several minutes.
snare part, rolllllllllllllllllllll and i dunno.
crash cymbols: in 4/4. crashes after toms play their 3 crotchets. repeats for several minutes.
metal claves: in 4/4. 4 crotchtets.

REPEAT TILL RITUAL IS OVER.
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sorry, hope u chinese aren't offended. but that's just how the music is. haha. well, today i had fun with my band geeeekyz! band practice was okay. just played the festival music, and the COMPETITION PIECE. wow.

i prefer sunrise, rather than safari. but both are equally nice. the thing abt safari is, HOW DO YOU GLISSANDO FROM AN F TO A G?! (middle range one lah). i cannot lah, from low to high. grr. hw! any trombonists? heh. -_-

got to know my roommates for the malaysia trip. and im not happy with who im gonna sleep with for these 3 nights. i totally despise it with all my might. hah. ones with large ego, i think and the other, with lousy attitude. sigh. what fate i got, till im paired with this two. damn. i wish i had either nicola, shahidah or even ama sia! man...i don't like this. maybe i'll sneak or something.

grr. headed to ljs after band. but combo1 is increased by a stupid twenty cents, so we just ate at foodcourt. all of us had pataya. hah.

and soon we parted, and me fian nic fiiz shawnee headed to yishun park to kinda de-stress. haha. i miss our de-stressing corner. we played the picolo, the swing pump thingy, and we formed a band. hahaa. i was the conductor! zzz. nic was with the percussion. shawn air tuba, fian, with a straw clarinet.

hhaa. i <3 my geeks lah.

then we went to safra, and slacked there. we paid a dollar for this merry go round ride. and the song was barney's rainbow song. omg lah. haha.

and went home. =D
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i feel bad already.
i am scared.
im scared of the comments given later.
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merry widows just made my day.
goodnight.

i feel very bad. i don't know. it's like, he's referring to me. idk sak.
saper suke terase kan.
grr lah, grr!
miyanhamnida?
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anws, whoever wanna go for this gig, tag me ar. im helping a friend.
=D

im very very very very very irritated.

i wish i was a fish. people can't talk to me. cause they'll look silly. and i can't talk. i'll just blow bubbles. and just swim around, in that tiny bowl. flooded with my own rubbish.

or

i wanna be an imaginary friend. so when someone thinks of something, only then i'll appear. if not, i'll be of non-existence. how abt that?

gahhh.
i always come up with weird things when im in the toilet.

ever heard of nickelodean's cartoon? the proud family? i've never watch that but i can like come up with a new show, with my family in it. "The Weird Family." im willing to act and even direct the show.

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damn, i hate this.
some people are so lucky. and i hate these lucky people.
because im not so lucky as them.

they got ultra close friends. and when i say ultra, its fkin ultra. its triple the meaning of very. heh. life just isn't fair.

i wish like, when we're just born, like we can fill in this thingy which says,

for a FAIR LIFE = tick here
for a NOT SO FAIR LIFE = tick here

i'll mark the first option.

i wish i got someone to talk to every night.
speaking of which, i need to revive my MIA bff.
i miss my sugaaaas.

i wish i wish i wish i wish on a shooting arrow.
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band tomorow. yay. i can't wait. hyd got the set piece alrd. lucky piece of crap. heh. fian told me that theres a glissando part. shit. i don't like that. somehow, im nt prepard for syf 07. damn.

2006 is like, leaving in abt a months time. and then, a new year is born. which marks and impt year for me. oh gees. i hate it.

oh yeah people. take not. i do not have caller id anymore. so when u call my hp, state ur name, and yeah.
and, im deleting people in my msn contact list and in my frenster too.

yeah, goodnight.

hi. im in a jiwangy mood today. hah! and nw im listening to steven, the shaker. dunt worry atrah, nt that ciner celup k? haha.

sigh. today, in the morning, after got dressed and packing my things to go band, i felt so weak. i didn't feel like going for today's prac. but, yeah. got to sia.

i think my wrist's getting better. though had a hard time sliding down to the positions lah. grr lorhz. left band at 11.
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gahh. i thought it was today.
i though i could see you.

saw fie at AI today. hugged her, when she was like soaked lor. ahaha.
then~
i like playing soccer with the fc chox grls! haha. yay. nw, when i think abt the past, i hug new friends goodbye zors. ahhaa. yay. soccer with them is great lah. they just need to polish up basics, don't be afraid of the ball and yeah. things like that

then we had a mixed-match. i mean yeah. i was with renee! saj! and me and mal and zad. hohoho. renee scored quite a few. she's good. yeah, they're all good. haha. just need to polish siket2. ahah! and hope to play soccer with them one day, in AI itself. hah. their shower room are open man. grr. but that teacher, who i find familiar like kinda halau-ed us. boo you.

yeah had teh-peng otw home. thanks to renee! yay.
oh, sukashi's cute. lol.

haha.
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so, i tried.
but in vain.
=s

some dorks/geeks/losers/twits/any-dumb-kental-grr-mnswrfq3w-kinda-people are veryvery lucky. sigh. i wanna be like them. pretty please?

damnit.
goodnight.

i actually prefer siti nurhaliza, rather than simple plan. *random*
i need caffeine and paracetemol.

love is blind. and will always be.
<\3

hello. just nw, after the upate, i immediately went to sleep. can't take it. my head's spinning.

slept for 2 hours and im still sleepy. my wrist still hurt. i take 5-10mins to take off my clothes. shit lah. i hate this. i have a hard time pulling up my socks, tie my shoe, carry my stuffs and all. shit lah.

i feel like singing sad songs. ive been listening to siti nur haliza's aku cinta padamu and biarlah rahsia. touching la gitu. heh.

grr.
tmr

gotta go band tmr. just sitting there mybe not playing at all. i cant take it lah siak. grr. and leaving at 11..sigh.

it has been raining whole day, right after trng just now. like wtf kan. grr. im cold. yet i think im running a fever. i dont like this.

im nt in the mood to do this and that. i just want someone to talk to. maybe i'll go and disturb othy later. hehe.

hyd....
goodnight lah.

i hate hate.
how long is this gonna last?
when is all this going to end?

hate is a strong word man.

ill update later. i feel like sleeping and my wrist still hurts. shit!

hello! so yeah, just came back lah. hehe. from today's punk rock fest = gig lahh..

yey. so met up with shit, hadi and my brother (-__-'') and headed to gashaus. skins, goin for punkrocks thingy. zzzz. so paisey walk with him. diao. then paid 8bux to hady. he blanjer me 2 dols. hehe!

then lepak outside gashuas b4 entering. and i saw azrie!!!!! aka othman. =DD had a fun time msn-ing with him lah. but he ask me to call him. lol. segan laa, othman! kau ni pon. haha. saw my old lepaking members! elfie n ilham. im glad they still know me. =D

hmmm. so yeah, the bands were alright. the crowd was great lah. haha. saw some familiar faces. then, i went to the mosh pit when it was Fueled By Agony performing. gerek siak. everysong, people mosh. and i fell like loads of time. okay, maybe 3. and i was punched in the teeth siak. and that bloody shit said my tooth chipped off. padahal tak. ahha. knn.

then then then moshmoshmoshmosh. and i fell with a hard landing. sad sak. i sprained my wrist. shittty. or whatever lah. it hurts. i couldnt take off my pants to pee siaaa. grr. and just nw had a hard to unbutton-ing my jeans. sigh. naseb. lol.

then after that chill2, cus sweaty2. then left gashaus. bidded goodbye to azrie! aka othman, elfie, faizah, azli, hadi, iman, haris. ahah. yeah. lol. azrie was like, eh ape sak shid. aku nye kawan nga peform niiii. alamak u.

zzz. so went of with the TWM boys feat alis plus me and shit and khairi. we walked all the way to this unknown 7-11 store where the workers aren't wearing their uniform, but instead this woman worker wore spag strap and minis. wth. ahha.

lepak, and walked to esplande underpass. lepak2 at the tangga, and the guys rossakkan the escalator. zzz. and went to sit at the concourse. haha. crapped and all. i like hanging out with people who can make me laugh. =D i acutally like their company! though im not so close with them larz.

was looking ard for familiar faces, and and and i was seeing double. sigh. i thought i actually saw hyd. dang! but people who looks like him la. hah. boo.

some guys/girls have all the luck in the world. seriously man.
okay, 2 words: IM JEALOUS.

=)
soccer trng tmr. sigh.
goodnight.

biarlah rahsia?
haha.

ITS A 'I LIKE YOU LIKE ME' KINDA THING.

damnit. hmm. you guys might be like going, whats with the i like you like me thingy. zzz. grr lah grr!!

tmrs the gig. yay. but so cocked up. i dunno to go with who. i scared in the end later no fren. haha. but fie,keirei,azrie's goin. plus the other ppl i know lah. dunno whether faiz going. zzz.

have to wear that happy tree friends tee again. shittybangbang. no more clothes la siak. hope the people at gashaus i know or what know that im wearing it twice. alahai, paisey la sekkkk. grr. khairi, diam2 eh. :p

then then then! shiddym, maddy, naddy and nammy going out! grr. tmr la they go. maybe joining them after the gig? or or i dunno man.

i also wanna lepak2 with the gig-goers sumer. haiya.

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grr. hyd's like away since 7plus, when i came back.till now. GRR!!
then my parents like pissing me off. &(!&@~^#
then my feet so cold. *#&$(!
then im listening to ja rule and ashanti?!?! %*#!

aiyohhh!
goodnight lah.

good afternoon.

i think im having dark rings ard my eyes. well, i slept at 3am yesterday. -_-''
haahhaa.

oh yeah, yesterday was myspacing day. lol. myspaced with syar, fist, syq, azrie and keirei. ahah. kecoh2. espacially with azrie lah. ahah.

oh, msn with syq n fist too. kecoh giler with fist. ahahhahahahahaha. was arguing with syq about mermaids. lol.

and fist <3s pigs. ahahhaa.
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oh yeah. yesterday ate at tongseng. apparently, fist was there too, but he was upstairs. yey! after a long time, i ate at tongseng again. had my favourite fried fish with milk noodles. yummeh.

haha. okay. i need to bath now. its 1331hrs. gonna go causeway point with my mom soon.
goodday y'all!

yeah, these are the few recent pics i editted. oh yeah, credits to pootato.org
okay, hyd is so stupid la. -_-''

okay, im off to meet my grandma, and head to the clinic later on.
goodday everyone!

hi. today is a boring yet bright day. a great day to go out with friends. well, too bad. im friend-less today.

grr. no band today. im literally rotting at home, infront of this four sided flat 12 by 15 inch addictive rectangle with black rims. sigh. what a day...

had plans of going out to town, but nah. don't wanna use $$. im broke. well, soon. i think i'll just go shopping in malaysia at KL lah. dun wann shop in singapore. hehe. zaida's gonna go shopping with mal soon, i guess. haha. see if i still got cash, i join you guys la eh.

oh yeah, my sister had a weird dream. well, me too. ahah.

its like this.

someone i know was getting married. then i was bored, so i asked my cousin to play along the road. like, the scene was like this. a pavement, road in the middle, and another pavement.

me road cousin ----walkway---- [w][e][d][i][n][g][b][l][o][c][k]------

yeah, like that. we each standing at one side la. we started throwing balls. u know, we gotta throw the balls across like that. then we played passing and what so ever and it started to get dark, and we went back to the void deck. they were still poeople eating...singing...mingling and all. suddenly, i saw this pak haji burning down the pelamin. and most the the guys, mainly the uncles and atok and big big brother tried to stop him. then suddenly, this ustaz started to do perform some prayers. i was holding the ball, and staring at the scene. and then! the funny thing was that the DJ was playing those kind suspense music, to add to the mood. -__-''

the pak haji who was burning down the pelamin explained that he was not invited to the wedding invitation. but the family of the bride n groom had no idea who he was. he was actually the one who stays 10 blocks away from them.

hahaa. yeah, tts it.
im bored. anyone wanna go commenting on myspace?

goodday, (^-^)

hello people of the world. zzzz

todaaaay, was suppose to go for soccer trng, but i skipped it. idk why i felt soooooooooooooo restless when i woke up at 7.34am. so msg mrhas and yeah, didn't attend today's trng. sorry girls. though i miss trng with y'all.

slept in, and felt a lil more refreshed. and watched america's music awards on star world. then watch mtv then used comp. myspaced and watched and listened to a few songs. i think i wanna listen to more british pop? ahah. see how la eh. and editted fad's picture for her birthday tmr!

hmmm. then left for siti's mother's house at NTUC. cool sak, the house. even tho its small, it nice! =D so helped with the food. took out the cake and all. lighted the candles. and we, (mira, nurul, sidiq and me) were suppose to light the candle once they're outside the hall. ahah! so, quickly lighted up, and we hid behind the door.

siti's conversation with fad and amirah and nurisah.
siti: fad! wanna go inside my room first not? we play ps2 while waiting for my mom uh?

haha! so siti opened he door, and we immediately sang happy bday to fad. though its an advanced suprise party..its rili gr8.

i nv have parties b4...such great thoughtfull friends who planned for fad. well, kudos to nurisah, amirah and siti! =D

so ate and ate. played dance2 revolution! and i keep winning. ohohoh. and we left soon after. i went home first to myspace and left for yck.

met the seller from yahoo.auctions and got the reebok bag! gonna wear that to anywhere frm nw on. hohoho. yay! shidm's gnna be so jealous la. i think. hehe.

no plans tmr. sigh. so bored. no band....boo. feel like goin out. but dun wnna use cash. sigh. dunno whether wanna go for the punk rock fest on 26th. no fren seh. later faizah confirm with her asf members. then khairi going. takkan kite 2 jek! tsktsk.

sighhhh. want to go notttt. aiyoh.

oh, soccer girlssss, sorry for not playing for the upcoming futsal match on the 13th n 14th of dec. but i'll be supporting u guys from wherever i am on that particular day. sorry, that i cant join. asal lah, kene same date. boo. win some color-ed prizes yeah. =D

goodnight la. grr
i knew, it can never be forever.

hehhhhhlooohh.

today's band was alright. time passed so quick. and i believe i am getting better and there shouldn't be any wrong notes while playing simple songs. that's why i brought home my instrument. haha. practiced digital prisms, singapura medley and scale studies just now. =D wanna try jubiloso tmr. call me semangat! :p

oh yeah, listening to Miyanhamnida - HowL
sighh. so touching. oh yeah, speaking of which. today's the last episode of Princess Hours. daaaamn. idk how many times i cried, thruout the whole season. can't believe hyd watched it too! omgsh. haha. but he said he didn't cry. boring la he. then then then i told him, my bf cried during the first part, he always go to that girl. ahha! then he was like, EH SIALAAH SHID. aper seyyy i do. boo. then he plak. he was like, im sad ar. my gf has to go overseas, macau. im soo gonna miss her.

HAHAHA.
tkper ar. i have my korean bf, and you have ur korean gf k?
=D
im glad we're communicating again.

so yeah. yssb can have a percussion guest player! introducing hydumbbbbb with the TRIANGLE solo. snare ade tknk. ahha!

okay dah dah dah
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oh yeah. i used the pics for erm, the soccer carnival i think, for my dp. then hyd n afist was like, ISHK. u played at jalan besar? wow! carpet grass seh! how does it feel? best? waaaaa. u must be good.

haha. flattering~ carpet grass are nothing to the nationals grls la. zzz. hmm. soccer training tmr. i dun feel like going. suddenly, there's so many things happening tmr! but there isn't any band prac la. zzz boring~

tmr, got soccer trng. then kikis party, supposedly NAFA concert and the meet up for the reebok bag. and movie with bandgeeks.

ohwells. movie n concert cancelled. 've been missing out alot with my other friends. hahaa. okay, tmr friends day la kkkk. hehe.

i guess tts all. WHOEVER WANTS TO BE FRIENDS ON MYSPACE, PLEASE ADD ME K. I GOT NO FREN ON MYSPACE LA. AHHA.

okay, goodnight.
SARANGHAMNIDAAAAAA!!! // hontoni aishiteru!

pesta sukan~

harrrrow. nothing much to update anws.

except that the seller mesaged me just now. yay! gonna meet her at yck tmr. to collect my reeeebok bag! yay! yay! tk sabar gue. online shopping is so great lah.
=D

hmm. just used the comp, watched mtv and slept while it was raining. great, and woke up just in time for princess hours. cried while wacthing. sigh..thought of some old nice memories.

oh, i pm-ed hyd. and we chatted fer a while. haha. i had fun, while it lasted. he's one great percussionist, i must say. like jacob ar, nic? hehe
=X

band tmr. hope the attendance is full or somethng. sigh....and it'll be the only practice for the week. boring seh. hmm. feel like bringing home my instrument. and must bring home stand and some scores to practice lor. hehe.

should i, or should inot bring home?

oh yeah, those pics, from adek. hehe!
goodnight, DANIELLE!
mom! imma covergirl, mom!!

haro all. (haizair's style of hello.)

okay, so i just finished washing up. just came back you see. so, the gig was GREAT! i think. though i was bored la. and didn't get to mosh alot. boo.

so, met up with shiTkin and keirie and walked to gashaus. and, made new friends there. hmm. first friends, SYQ and umar or omar idk his name. haha. syq's bf la. then then, entered gashaus. wow. the crowd was huge lah. it was so packed, no place to sit. and the moshpit was huge too! well, that particular band was playing lamb of god or mayhem or some black metal kinda song. not my type anws, aha.

made my way up, and got to know the TWM people and friends, and also haziqah. =D cute la she. haha. ok, syq too. woo~

then see see people mosh and play and perform. and saw tt sec5 girl. matus eh? idk. she was moshing. wow. kinda terperanjat, tt she was moshing la. 0_0

then, TWM's turn. the crowd was like so, ..... (crickets*). idk why. rafi was telling, erm, khalis? "asal crowd diam sak." then, all their orig songs, no one moshed exaclty. sad. then, last song. underoath, boy brushed red living n whatever color, more and more people joined the moshpit la. tts the only time i moshed. ahah. but tk bnyk sngt lor. the floor so wet. but got to push people around, and i was being pushed! ahha. yay.

then, no more moshing. lek2 kat atas, then blablabla then went to eat. from gashaus, walked to bugis's mac. then sit and crap and lepak lah kirekan. then walked to cityhall. go ljs eat. then, went home. =D

hugged syq home first. ahah. funny eh, hugged her home. mcm, fook.lol. pelok la dong. zzz. then she n her bf balek, then we play gema's psp, then we eat erm, syaaaahir's chicken with cheese and khai was being gay with hafiz. haah. these people are actuali fun!

then went home. at the mrt was where i actuali get to know them, better lah. kecoh la they all. i like! =D most stayed in the eastern side. haha. the bb eastern boys, according to khalis. -_- haah. so, high-5ed them and went home. gem and haziqah went back to pasir ris. while me, shit n khai headed to jurong east.

oh yeah, while walking to city hall, me and iq/kah had an intresting talk. and we share 1 thing in common, WE BOTH PLAY SOCCER! too bad she was a reserve..and didn't play for the match, at jalan besar. haha. yay for me and haziqah!

went home and tadaaaa. yay! and i won the reebok bag auction. gonna take the bag, give him instanst cash when i meet him lor. 14bux, for a reebok bag? tsktsk. dirt cheap. =D and soon, gnna bid for this purple tee, with a milk carton picture. =D

i got lotsa stares, for wearing the happy house tee. ahah! kecoh.
okay, i love the friends i made, (ithink) today. hope to see them agaaaain!

goodnight, wetwet mosh-aaahs.

was bored lah, so
did this. well, its not sooo nice and all. boo! okay knn, my stomach pain and im siaping now. tata~ and off to the gig later. gonna see ben there! and hopefully, some other familiar faces. too bad, wan tk ikot. boo.boring seh. hha.

gonna go gashaus myself. saper2 nk gi gig, jom! anything msg my hp la. kbye~

boo. haha hello im bored and no one is entertaining me tho.

well, shitkin called in just now. but she salah timing la, during PH she called. boo u shit. yeah, crapped and all. talking abt the gigs.

yay! but that stupid perjumpaan hari raye thingy, must go. grr. like im sooo gonna have fun there. -_-. i doubt so. tsktsk. gonna leave there and, head to gashaus on sunday! yay.

hope to see more people. long time never see khairi, haiwan, shit, rafi.... too bad azhim nt following. and as usual, hyd wouldn't be going. -_-''

grr.

just now, i went to repair my dear watch. but they said they don't have tt thing la. grr. i was so sad. damn. walked outta shop, with my head low. but i bought the black n white eyeshadow from silky girl, the one i've been eyeing for eversince a month ago. =) and also bought crispy seaweed to cheer myself up.

such a waste, it wasn't wasabe flavoured. boo.
sigh. going to my aunt's hse tmr, i guess.

im lazy~
lazyness is such a disease!

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and yey! gonna go for ssw concert in the evening. band geeks, who wanna go? but idk where to get the tix seh. can't get them from hyd nimore. boo.

goodnight lah.
grr.

hello. im bored. i feel like sleeping, tho i woke up an hour before. i woke up at noon..

plans to watch deathnote @ vivo was cancelled. ohwells. i have no plans. i feel like going to town. but, nahh..

i think i'll rot at home and watch dvds. i think. or just watch cartoons. i wish i got my baby (trombone!) here with me. embraaaaaaaaaaaace the child. haha! k bedek.

hmm. i think i shall make a list of things i want to get.

- this black tee
- tees with those wordings
- thee reebok bag! still auctioning!
- side bag
- vintage clutch!
- new retro watch
- ear studs!
- vintage tees
- lookalike tees @ threadless
- black hoody!
- polo tee
- patches & pins
- 2nd hand clothings
- santa barbara jacket
- wilson sweatshirt

okay, so you guys decided which to get me for xmas? HAHA. k mepek. sigh. im bored.
goodday everyone.

im still missing you.

*new mini-banner for ripsnorters!* haha.

hello there. today's band was better than the previous practices. still scoldings here and there. but, i played well today. =D im glad. gotta mantain or play better, the next practice! i don't mind long hours for band seh. :p

then then then! haizair's hair was burnt, in band prac! ahhaha! by yours truly, khairi. ahha! kesiaaan, haizah. :p hmmm. then, while lepaking at foodcourt, fian n zair argued abt the black parade lyrics. To Return, or Do or Die. ahhahaha. haizair, haizair.....eventually, haizair was right la. me and dil agreed with haizair. ahhaha. kecoh kecoh. haizair eh, dah besar ehhh. tk tau camne seh, die nti. hohoho. im jacob!

ok, i've been listening to loads of band songs now. its like, everytime i switch on my mp3/wmp, i play band songs. woo! im in love with Carribean Beat, Oregon, Into the Joy of Spring, Concerto D'Amore, this Euphonium solo and In the Winter of 1730. wooo. touching la all these songs. and not forgetting Fierra Winds, Golden Circle, Persis and Alvamar Overture. =D oh, SEAGATE TOO!

after band, went to eat at kfc. ahhaah. i <3 band mates lah. when eating with shawn aka babi, very difficult. ahhaha. you turn ur head, u see 1 fries gone. haha! :p babi, babi. well, his maid calls him babi waaad. too bad nic can't join us. booo.

after band, walked ard with band peeps, and bumped into Mayflower band kids. they were actually promoting their concert, later on the 22nd. concert name: Deck The Halls. hmm. eh, dec or nov. never ask. its 12bux. haha. nah, i'll go for SSW's concert, i think. and also Peixin's concert! haha. ok.

and theeeeeeeeeen, went home. used the comp till 5 and slept all the way till 8pm. wheee.

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imbored. i want/need a ONLINE OVERSEAS BOYFRIEND! sigh. real visible boyfriends are borrring. i want a computer geeky english guy. WOOO. sigh.

things are getting so fucked up these few days. i've been cursing and swearing.. sigh.
3 words, i miss you.

goodnight, buzzer.

zam, spidey-act.

meeee, with zam. :o0

wani and the boy who did a landing on wani's chest. =x

peaaaaaaaaaaaace.

look and thee expressions, on their faces!! XD

okay, zam's back. fian told zam to pose like this. show off the shoulders. haha!

erps, wrong position of photo though. midnight camwhoring lah

shiddddym and amira's brother, zam!

mid-night camwhore!

midnight-whore.

*fresh-made icon!*

hello.

i just read theeeee history. and i never get sick of it, despite it'll make me disheartened. sigh. its like, a another way to say, "hmm. sorry. but, let's be friends? =D" kinda thing. idk whether to be GRR or like BOO in a sad way..damnit...whatever.
='(

was late for today's band practice. played rhythm builders and exaltation. and i suck at the bar where trombones are clearly heard, since it's a solo for alto. and the trombone plays the rhythm. accent and staccato. boo. i suck. it's weird. whenever mrtan asks the trombones to play that particular bar, i shiver. i begin to panic. but i don't show it. and when it's my part to play, i sound horrible. i sound like sdwqdf83. sigh. im dissapointed in myself.

mrtan told us trbs, we were playing rubbish.
damnit.

during breaks, the guys played persis. WOW. the running notes for the clar were madness! i didn't understand eupho's part tho. but, it was nice lah. then i played blu ridge with the eupho and alto sax. nice. mr tan commented well too. 0.o

after band, went to mac, to wait for hafiz and fadil. we planned to go to vivo with shidm's n dil's NCO peeps. but dil wanted to be with his loyal band mates. haha! ade2 jek. and we ate at banquet. and this was where i sense that there are people who are willing to support me. i think. =
hafiz, was saying.
"before i joined the trombone sect, i actually thinked twice. but, yeah. i was glad to be in the trb section."

and he started talking about THAT girl = me.

"that girl, in the trb section can actually play well. well, quite good i must say. better than her other senior." (*i find tt flattering. :P)

"but, after i left the trb section, and joined the eupho, i was kinda sad to leave the trb section. i know they can continue and blow well, without my guidance/me. but now, THAT girl has seemed to de-prove. she's not improving. she's blowing/getting weaker. i don't know why..."

i felt a lil sad. but hafiz said, whatever he said, were words of encouragement. and then, fadil comes with his food, and start talking about community/outside bands since i was talking to sufian about SSW.

fadil: im shocked that someone in the band can even say, for he has a high position, to not continue music career in the future.

i was shocked too. i told them, "i would love to play for an outside/community band, but the problem is, im not that good."

and everyone was like, sigh-ing and like, who cares if u arent good! espacially nic, "you must have determination, desire, passion in yourself, shid!"

:D

im considering to join an outside band after the Os, i hope. well, at least to pursue the passion for trombones and music.

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enough of the band talk. hope i can perform better, at tmr's band practice. sigh....listening to old songs now. marc anthoney's songs are really sad and romantic....

how could i ever say goodbye
goodnight, angry child.

hai...khairi....kau laa, yg sorang tanye aku asal aku GRR nari. oklah, mim pon tanye asal. hai....orang2 laen, nmpknye, tknk care langsong ehhh? ape nk buat....dah gitu...ehh? betol taaaak?

well, PART 1 now.

went jalan rayer-ing with band-its. or band geeks. consisting of me! fiiz! fian! ama! wani! dil! shidm! nora! fiz!

yeah. we planned to meet at 1pm at yishun mrt. so, fiiz arived at 1pm. followed by me, nora, ama at 1.30pm. then sufian at 1.45. wani at 2pm. hafiz at 2.30pm. fadil at 2.45pm. hahaha. kite pon raye kat mrt tauuu.

headed to shidm's house at marsiling, and reached there at bout 3 going to 4plus. i <3>

then took pics, and went to fadil's place. where the guys got scolded by this pakcik cause they kacau him. Zzzz. then walked to hafiiz's place where we ate roti john and the guys solat and his mom told stories about hotels since we're goin to the msia trip later on. and his dad was a tubist in the spore police band, i think.

then we went to wani's house and we ate me siam and we were shouting n screaming when fadil was playing xbox some ninja game. hahaa. then we went to my house. blablabla and went to amira's house. her brother is sooooo cute and fat! ahah. then hafiz's hse. and it was like 11.30 siak. and we left his place at like 11.45pm. mampos. shidm cabb-ed home while the rest of us walked home. and when reaching the mrt, there was only me, fadil and fian. fian went to mac, and fadil send me till the interchg. okdah.

reach home 1220hrs sak! haha. and tros mandi tido.
END OF PART 1.

i didn't feel good, along the way. i mean, during the jalan rayer-ing. dspite the good times we're suppose to have, deep down inside everyone, each of us well, them. i don't. i think. they hold a grudge against someone in the group. and, like wth. sigh..somehow, i think. even though all of us can get along pretty well, there will be, hidden grudges/feelings for one another. sigggh sighh sighhhhh. biler mau maju ni mcm u ol? =(

and fie's a pure bio student! omgsh. gotta study from her soon i think! and mim's crazy! she's a pure geog kid! waaah. AI really gives great/weird/cool/intresting combos! mim's taking pure geog, history and ss. WOW. giler aku ckp. gilerrrr!! ahaha. :p ok good luck u 2 yg aku kenal ajer yg sec2. haha. boo.

band tmr. sigh. hope i don't suffer any embarrasment tmr. sigggghhhhhh.
ape nak jadi?
sabar smpai besok pagi..

there would be about 2 parts to my entry today.
part 1: YESTERDAY'S JALAN RAYER WITH BAND GEEKS.
part 2: TODAY'S BAND PRACTICE.

=)
i'll start with part2. cause part1's pictures aren't uploaded. but yeah.
Part 2.
todays band practice was, unexplainable, to me that is. i didn't know why. when mrtan told me and jiemeng(trombones) to play that goddamn rhythm/bar. i got stuck. i blowed the wrong note. i forgot the rhythm. i was like, wtf. and gotta say, both of us played like shit. fuck. i was cursing myself.

and as you yssbgeeks know...when someone/section can't play that well, he will start his lectures. and i was rather embarassed. well, very. now, im in sec3. and look at haizair. he's in sec1. okay, include the amount of years he spent playing the eupho in primary school, maybe equivilent to about 3 years too. which is, same to mine.

sigh. maybe what mrtan said was true. well, it should be true. in my opinon lah. he said, i've been in the band for almost 3 years. and perhaps out of this 3 full years, it's like i just attended band for 2 years or less. which i find rather true. cause im busy with soccer and stuff.

shit. i felt so embarassed at band just now. well. it's all inside. how you feel. i feel embarassed enough. i've suffered the humiliation. but i just don't know how to improve! i'll bring my instrument home on friday i think...sigh. i'll practice in the storeroom i guess?

and i really don't know how to cope next year. with the big O's, FAS tournament and the SYF'07. shit. this 3 are very important to me. well, unlike the others, they got 1 or 2 to concentrate on. i heard that the soccer tournament is during the 2nd month. and SYF in the 4th or 5th month, i think. it's sooo gonna clash. shit. HOW LA SIAK. damnit.

it's like, perhaps. i have to give up on either one. give up the trombone, or lose the boots and balls. the question, like what mrtan always ask, "what is that thing, u really one?"

well, i want to achieve in both MUSIC and SOCCER. that's the problem. well, i can never give up both. shit. how did i ever end up in this tragic state?? maybe im thinking too much.

i was at sgbandfusion.com forum. lotsa bands having concert. gotta go for lesser gigs. more concerts. sigh. i WANT/NEED to go to PEIXIN's concert! imprezz 4 or something? i heard haizair, hafiz, nic will be performing? whee~

and and lotsa bands playing Alvamar, El Camino Real, Fantasy Variations, Ross Roy, Sparctucus, Passion of the Christ and also October.wow.

i'll stop here. i'll continue part2 at night. =)

PICTURES FROM THE 32ND NCO THINGY AT CCAB. DM: FADIL BM: SHAHID aka SHIDM

shidm just msg, and told me to wear pink today. but i wanna wear cream! then he said its up to me. okay lah tuh. but then then then, it'll be cool lah. like, SHIDS IN PINK. wow. hahaaha.

OMGSH. ITS RAINING ALREADY! sigh. how! on such a day like this. and i don't have a good looking, decent umbrella! i think i'll loan from mrs sharin. haa.

dang!

i just needed to blog. it seems, that the world is getting smaller, and smaller by day. slowly, shrinking. everyone seems to know everyone. wow. it's either singapore's small that somehow everyone's connected, or im just slow at knowing all these. sigh. ohwells, you can't blame me. i don't have much friends from the eastern, southern, western side of the country, which is rather sad, i suppose.

boo you, shid. boo you.

and, faiz sounded kinda harsh at out conversation just now. =x. he was like, "takper la, satu2 dah ade hal masing2.." daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn. i thought at least one of us would turn up! damn i miss hanging out with the ex-nps peeeps.

boo you, shid. boo you.

and now. im suffering from insomnia. BEDEK. its 1246hrs and im awake. i wish i can chat with somebody right now. i know. i'll go find an online-overseas boyfriend! yay! so, when its 12am here, it should be day time over there! anyone got any hot caucasians guys email/msn? haha! serious seh. i need/want an online-boyfriend. =x

erps.

Ross Roy - Jacob De Haan ( the fella who composed spore rhapsody)

hello people. today, wasn't that bad afterall. despite the cair-make up due to the sun's heat and the sweaty sweats. HAHA. -_- it as oookay la. not that great but yeah.

first off, met up with the grls at the interchg, and went to ridwan's wedding thingy. and and and as usual. i noe my friends very well. they were very segan to actually step in to the compound. haha. i walked straight in, to find ridwan and the mom. the place wasn't packed with the 'pendatang'. and i saw the pelamin at the back of the void deck. orro? the pengantin were sitting there, like dressed up mannequinns. which i kinda pity them lah. its their special day, and they sit there, not being entertain-ed. i wish i could eat next to them! sigh. ohwells. it wasnt that bad after all.

then, left the place and lepaked near northland family clinic with zaida, tika and nina. and we walked slowly to my house, to leave the telors given by ridwan's house. and met malah under my block and went towards khatib to send nina off. and we walked to the bustop. 853-ed to mrhasrin house.

it wasn't really an open house la. just an informal gathering among 4 girls, and a teacher at a teacher's mother's house. hahaha. wat only. it wasnt so boring and all. but, yeah.

and went back to northpoint. it was when i thought i saw someone like hyd. =x illusions i guess. haha! and happened to meet my mom there. parted with the girls, and went to buy dinner with her.
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jalan raya with the band geeks tmr! or like fian said, bandits! whatever. i prefer band geeks. cause im one! :) and as usual. there'll be conversations on YSSB. haha. confirm ade punyaa! conversations on the progress of the band and such. political talks about the YSSB music industry! haha.
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just went to aicb's blog. and, idk why im saying this over and over again. sigh. peixin band can play ross roy. can yssb play that? i keep saying all this. but, WTFH LA. i don't know la.
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plans for the holidays.
- go gigs. 19th and 26th
- go ssw concert. maybe opss concert and peixin pri concert *HOT!!!*
- go iceskating with the grls. *HOT!!*
- go watch at least A movie. (kakrin, ok, shatttup.)
- shop at salvation army and at second hand clothing stores.
- go lepaklepaklepak till late
- go gym!! *HOT!!*
- go cycling!
- go idk where else.
- have dinner somewhere.
- EAT BAN MIAN
- reach top F!!!! *HOT!!*
- lose weight. WAWAWA. *HOT GILER PANAS BEB!!!*

sigh. i guess that's all. hope tmr's outing with bandits/geeks will bring memories! aha. -_-. had a hard time choosing what to wear. gonna wear this creamy top tmr. i think shidm would wear pink. cannot wear same la, boy. ahha!

hyd's offline. he's been away since i was online. boo. ohwells.

goodnight, motormouth.

IM AM NOW IN A SITUATION WHICH I DO NOT LIKE. shiiiiiiiiiitty shity bang bang.

i told matin that im coming for faiz's open house later at 2, after ridwan's jemputan. okaaay. provided if mrhasrin's open house is not confirmed or cancelled. so, okay.

and now, mrhasrin just tagged. but i don't seem to understand. and IDK!! damnit! but if mrhasrin's open house is confirmed, i'll like, SHIT LARR. cause i booked sunday for todays open house. faiz told me a later date, so tak janji faiz lah. then now, mrhasrin tak reply. HAIYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. eh no lah. culture say must follow nic's way. HAIYOOOO, COYOTITOOOOO!!

thenthenthen. JSNDJSADN23R8. idk la. how ehh. are you go? are you fever? are you hot?
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so, mrhasrin just called. and nownownow. jadi! okay yay. BUTTTTTTTTTT~ faiz! how! fuck la. how to tell matin!! and faiz! faiz was like, "rabak shiddd" all the way loh. haiya..matin confirm 'hot'.

im sorrrrrrrrrrrrry, faiz! mianhamnida! gomenasaii!!
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sigh. its so boring nowadays. no one to rely on and such. no one, exactly to be with. no one to crap 24/7. where have all these people gone?

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bye.

sarang heyo, ______
mianhamnida faiz.

*maddy was bored~*

hello there. okay, its sunday. but, i'll blog about YESTERDAY. haha. which is saturday lah. okay yeah.

today went to my old neighbours wedding invitation thingy. and the groom's friend were the mat motors. woo. madness. when they took their picture, haha. they roared, ''slmt pengantin baru!'' okay, tt was unneccessary. then people thought i was the first in the family, whereas im the 3rd. sighsighsigh. do i look that big? yeah i do. HAHA. okay dah.

then went to cik menah's hse. then after we left, cik nah was getting ready to go to cik limah's house. wasted never go. haa. so long nvr see ikah la. :p but then, i was lazy to go alone lar. then idk how to go home siak. (:

then went to cikman's house. and hyd called! :DDD but my mother was sooo annoying. so had to ask him to wait. then when i asked him what he wanted to say, he was like, "erm, tkper lah. u just msg me." GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ibu ehh. tsktsk.

then went to wakahmad's place. waduh! makanan yg disajikan seperti rumah terbuka! haha. was goddamn full loh. ate mi soto and fried chiken and some kueh jelly and lepaaaak on the sofa while watching aqilah playing gol-fe.-_-

and we're home~ haha. -.-
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till now, hyd nvr msg. kater jek....dek niiiii. nak kene tepuk kat dahi uh. ehh? :p hmmm. tmr he got band, i think. whateverrr~

i mean, sunday. which is today lar. going for ridwan's brother wedding thingy and and looks like mrhasrin's open house isn't on. and faiz is holding an open house. BUT I HAVE NO ONE TO GO WITH! i feel soooo bad loh. haiya faiz. i dunno lah.

and i just bloghopped to aicb's blog. and its like, perhaps their band standard are, congruent to yssb. idk...maybe? but i know, they even play grade5 songs.sigh....yssb...im beggining to sound more like the qm, alto saxist, YUE TING. tsktsk. ahah!! you know, i dreamt of playing alvamar in a concert with yssb. wow. kinda stupid and all. hah. but...when will i even play that piece. wait till i get up to haizair/hafiz/sufian's standard, then, we'll talk about all those pieces. =x

oh yeah, after-pop session at kfc yesterday. fadil was saying. i got a better and accurate intonation then my senior. which i find rather flattering, but idk whether to take it like, idk how to say it. but yeah. daaaarn.

I REAAAAAAAAAAAALLY GOTTA WORK HARD SIAK.

i think i'll sleep..goodnight all.
sarang heyo.

hello! today's, i mean, yesterday's NCO P.O.P was fun! though it was sweaty and sticky throughout. with the overwhelming crowd. okay, i dun think that's the correct word to use la. whatever.

so met up with nick, fiiz, fian at 4.45pm and haha, i was the last to arrive. and we went straight to newton. and boy! the crowd of band geeks at the bustop was huge la. ahhaha. diffrent military/symphonic/concert band groups were mingling among themselves. ahha! bus service 171 was packed with band geeks of course. all going to the same event as me and my geeeeks. ahah. saw lotsa diffrent kind of band people. intresting. and the seats at the stadium were almost filled. haha. i didn't see hyd there though...

and the parade began. was goddamn shock to see fad and shidm wearing the new uniform. i was like wfwtfomgomgwtf. yeah, i was cursing. but then fadil said it was good and even the instructor were complementing him. idk if it were to make him feel good, or he really means it. =x

the parade/display was superb! and, the ending was a great one. the feeling of success. when all the drum majors lifted their maces in the air with a loud roar. wow. that feeling...the achievement. this was what the dms wanted to achieve.

and the band majors, have achieved what they wanted, by memorising all the pieces and all the displays. wow.

KUDOS TO EVERYONE WHO WAS INVOLVED IN THE 32ND NCO THINGTHINGY. =)

hhahaa. took pics. and ran to the newly-groomed dm and bm. took pictures and all. had a lil chat. haha. looking at other band member uniforms..then me fian fiiz nic fiz went to get refreshments. and apparently, i saw youknowwho there. haha. shortyy~ :p

we took food like we've nvr seen food for about a week. ahha. fian and fiiz was stuffing food into the plastic bags. aper lagi, sumbat lagi arr! ahha. madness. and waited for shidm and fadil..but shidm was like, ..... maybe he has to go home with his family. couldnt blame him for not joining us..though it would be better if he joined us. haha. ohwells~

and we went to town after all that. was hoping to see him again at anywhere but in vain. boohoo. ahaha. :p was carrying the mace and wearing the sash at town. haah. crazzzzeh. and all eyes were on me. :x its okay, i loveee the attention. NOT.

and home. the pics are up there i guess. im lazy to like adjust the pics and all. so yeah, have a great weekend! i hope i have a great one. =x

Saturday: wedding invitation and visiting cousin's houses.
Sunday: soccerteacher openhse (not cnfirmed still.), ridwan's wedding invation.

YEY.
so, goodnight, great drum and band majors.

*i feel fat. (and no, you cant feeeel fat. you ARE fat.)*

PS: i cant seem to upload the pics at this time of the day. tmr perhaps. =) i mean, later in the afternoon yeah. goodday!

*sadamhussein says, HELLO WELCOME TO MY CHAMBERRRR!*

hello. today, i ate ban mian again, at causewaypoint. i never get sick of my banmian with lotsa2 chilli. haah.

and, tmr, im going to the P.O.P! yay. cant wait. gonna see fadil and shiddddm perform! yes-ahhhh. chance of your lifetime. ceh, mcm ape gituk eh! haah. and he's gnna be there with hissss band mates. wawawa.

okay, i think i wanna go sleep or apply some ointment. till then people..i'll be back with more updates on tmrs occasion! POP!

goodnigt, grey ribbon.

hello everyone. i'll make this a quickie, i think. haha.

today didn't went for band practice. boo. missed out i guess. and kakya said they're playing latin gold. again~ tsktsk. i so hate that song la. okay so dah.

today made my Identity Card at the Immigration and Checkpoint Authority (ICA) building. haahha. my last day to make the IC was like on 2 October or sumthing. haha. and now, its already a month's plus. haha. kecooh2. hyd was like, AHHH? TK IC? HAHAHHAHA. eevil. and yeah, what he said was true lor. it was sooooooo full with people. i was like "what are these ppl doing here? why aren't they on an holiday?" haha. gler.

so, my sister queued for the registration number, while i took my passport photo. there cheap u noe! 4pcs for $5! ahha. cheap huh? and i looked like zaida. -_-. had to clip my fringe cause we gotta see the brows y'all. heh. and, tadaaa, i look liek jeyda. hah.

then queued for my number and i see lotsa ppl my age doing so too. then was my turn, they asked name balblabl2, jawi name. ahah. i got the jawi name on my ic y'all! got a lil hard time writing the mohd amin. haha. luckily the counter lady tau ssiket2. =)

then went to keypoint building, deposit money, and back to ICA and take kakak's passport. goddamnit. her number was 1103 and when we entered the waiting place, it was only 0689 like that. madness~ ahhahaha. boleh giler sak, tunggu. tsktssktsk.

after passport, waalked to bugis. we walked thru the various streets andlanes. and we came across this vintage/retro 2nd hand shop at haji lane. great! but kinda freaky. eerie la. tried this pair of faded jeans. 25bux.

ok, some promotion here.

IF YOU WANNA GET SOME VINTAGE/RETRO/60S/70S DRESS OR 2ND HAND TORN JEANS, go to Haji Lane. and u pandai2 a.

then walked to banquet@raffles. ate my banmian and walked to b.junc. and apparently, there wasnt anybest denki there. my mum told us to get her a cordless phne but to no avail. aha.
then go j8 to look for the phone. i was like so intrested in the toy capsules. haha. wanted to get one, but scared the toy later notnice. nxt time bah~ ahha.

go home and tadaa~ saw AI frens otw hme. didnt recognise the gals but saw waz, akmal and faris. haha. faris action! and hyd was otw home. he left them. ahah. dek tu ehhh, ken arr. :p

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am gonna go golden mile and get the wilson jacket maybe and the santa barbara cardigan. yey! more and more vintage/retro stuffs. idk why i get so intrested in them lately. ahah!

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erm, happy 15th birthday to SUQQQQQQQQQQQIMAN on the 5th.
and 16th to arif. =

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goooodnight, SARANGHAMUNKITA. hahaha.

ps: does a punk rocker wear polka dot stockings? curious! and do they go para-ing? or or what? hahahaa. give me your answers in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!

okay good day all. today i went to school. i set my alarm at 7. but i woke up at 7.45 so i rushed like dsnu3q2 to school. i don't wanna be late for the first band practice lor. im missing my baby so much. =p

then started band like at 8.30 lor. 15mins mrtan was like lecturing us. tsktsk. and we played scale studies. and i left aftr that when they were abt to play SINGAPURA MEDLEY CHORALE! aiyehh. wasted.

went to poa class at 9.30. and hour late. like wth. who cares. i enterd the class and all eyes were on me. i was like gagap-ing lor. "erm, sorry ma-, madam. eh! sorry mshew. i got band just now." haha.and everyone was laughing. i wanted to say ma-ry initially. hahaha. got so used to calling her mary la. poa was crap.

chem got new topic. so fast seh. and those who were absent, really2 need to catch up loh. hah. then blablabla after water, teach abt periodic table. then go home. rushed to band room and they were playing latin gold. EEEE. tequila -___-'' i hate tt song. give me 2 weeks la. can master. CEH. MACAM PA.

haha. after baaand, lunch-ed at np with fiz, bobo, shawny, han, fiiz, nic, fian. and the guys were crapping about their 'little brother.' hahahaha. madness.

then walked ard with memba fiiz, fian and nic at np. and we decided to go causeway. ahaha. no life sak, we all. then we went to the basement and tried crispy seaweed! fian's recommendation. we tried hot and spicy. nice. and we just had to had more. so we bought another packet of wasabi and tomyum flavoured crispy seaweed. CRISPY SEAWEED IS SOOO THE NEW AYAM GORENG/AYAMBRANDTUNA!!

ahhahaa. then go home.
blablabla.

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then blablabla. hyd said he saw me at the bustop across the street at ys mrt. ahaha. coincidence. and he must have pretty good eyesight aye. ahha.

okay. gtg. making my ic tmr. haha. excitied u! okay labye~
and hows the new greenstared skin? haaha.

IM A TRUE POSER IN BRITISH. hahaa. -_-
and and and, I WONDER WHO'S GOIN FOR THEE 19TH GIG SIAK. HAHAAHAHHA. you're funny, kid.
yeah, WHATEVER with the cybershotttt