Confessions.
"I asked myself what could I do?
What I could do is still, only, to sing.
To all our fans, I wish to convey through my songs.
I can only sing.
I want to sing."
- Xiah, Kim Junsu

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Holding on to the same heart

the other day, JYJ held their Thanksgiving concert at Kyocera Dome. it was beautiful. they sang their solo songs from past Toho albums and also new songs. and of course, tears had to be shed.

sigh. wished i was there.

i can't stop listening to W. "...now I'm just wishing for you to be happy, we'll climb the stairs before us, one by one, and as we continue to imagine our future, we'll be waiting for you..." it's beautiful. my hair immediately rose when i heard junsu struggling to sing because he was sobbing.

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김 Twins!
oh, stfu. yes i went to the airport to see 1 of the Rising Gods of the East and his brother. 김준수 and 김준호.

junho was so much taller. sooo much taller, really.

junsu. typical airport junsu. love his style. sigh, wished TVXQ Event covered today and took gr8 shots. (waits for pics from DNBN)

right. i just hope i wont regret not attending zuno's showcase. but to pay, and hear junsu sing a song. idek. oh well. 1 down. 4 more to go. will i ever get to see changmin?

WELCOME TO SINGAPORE!
환영합니다!

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SHIT. GOT. REAL.

ily jannah for constantly updating me when im out working or out. THX BBY. IMYSFM. so anyway. max matsura said that Tohoshinki will be pausing/suspending their activities.

WHAT. DOES. THIS. MEAN? has Japan given up on them? Avex? what about SME now? i...dek. im just waiting for the day everything's finalized and learn that my first love is no longer a group. perhpas they'd go their own way pursuing different roles. im just glad i was part of this amazing journey.


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but you know what irks me the most? to not see them have a proper stage together, even during Stand By U. what more tokiwo tomete and with all my heart?

brb while i listen to their sappy songs and watch their shows. you did well, guys. i foresee y'all coming up with your own company a few years later. MAYBE ITS ALL A TRICK! MAYBE HOMIN ARE REALLY CLOSE WITH JAECHUNSU! MAYBE IT'S AN ACT! MAYBE OT5 HAD SOJU AND CHICKEN THAT NIGHT!

sigh...

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You.
How would you protect a girl?

If it’s during our date and we got attacked if that was the situation then I’ll put my girlfriend in a taxi first and let her go. Then even if I run away desperately she won’t see me *laughs*

- Changmin, Vivi Magazine


of course you would.
♥♥♥

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I missed you...

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CHANGMINNNNNNN!



irona. irona! IRONAA!! (wake up!) this was during one of their bigeast station. sigh, changmin is the best guy alive. h8ers to da left! ngl, i lold at 0112hrs.

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SAENGIL CHUKAHAE!

100125 - Happy 20th LEEJUNHOOOOOO.
I miss your tweets. :( IMYBBY!



100126 - Happy 24th Kim Jae Joong! The ulzzang, cook, rapper, dancer, vocalist, dork, weird, mother, brother, boyfriend. IMY!

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Listen up!

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YO 2PM! I'M HAPPY FOR YOU (and ily) AND I'MMA LETCHU FINISH, BUT DBSK HAD THE BEST STRIPPIN STAGE ON GAYODAEJUN OF OL TIMES!
OF ALL FRIKIN TIMES

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Perfection.
jaechunsu's "Smile Again" fanmeet.


baby seungri's/leeseunghyun's 19th.

concert, under a diamond sky.

12 December 2009.
완벽게!

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Please don't..
TGIF. i look forward to fridays often since its the end of the week plus i love communication because its kinda laid back.

so today was on non-verbal communication and it wasn't that tough. i loved it, infact. plus plus haptic was covered too. SEE. kpop teaches you school stuff, smtimes. hohoho.

i was up for challenges and guess whut, after all the rushing of work, we hadta present another teams' presentation. meeting3 with a twist. was really interesting tho. and i guess i tc well for comm. i cant tc for sci or maths. =/

blabla went back home with suqi and he was story-telling about fights which occurred in a match with buncha matreps lol. next week, imma go baddy with my classmates! can't wait can't wait can't wait! :D

work was okay and the EPs were on a roll1 new flyer staff distributor who was from AI. i was asking my brother if he knew him and he said tt he's some wacko guy who told everyone he was a nazi skin. HAHA. idklah.

saw botak-no-more just now. i remember those days, when me and ama spazzed over him in 812. LOL. and bumping into him at macDs and LJS. sigh. i miss those days. hahaa.

so i bet y'all heard. the awful rumor of DBSK disbanding. so apparantly its just them filing a lawsuit, mostly on SM making the boys his slave for 13years and about the sheep placenta crappeos. idk.

as long as they're together, im cool. i was about to yell out, "CHEBAAAL ANDWAEYO ANDWAEYO ANDWAEYO KAJIMAYOOOO". so anyway, because changmin is osm,


Specialty?
- Eating. I’m confidence with my eating ability.

Strong and weak point?
- My weak point is I’m shy. Even though everyday I meet a lot of people, I have to say something but always ended in silence.


my bb is just like me. ♥

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Blue sea surprise.
just like the last day of Miroticon in BKK, the fans prepared the Blue Sea project during ballads like Insa, LITI and Don't Say Goodbye.

so for today's dome concert, awsum fans prepared the blue sea during SBU. damn. i need to see a fancam. yday, they had around 50K in the hall. today, prolly doubled or less. idk. ah. i feel so... good this weekend.

since i had the day off and had no plans and no dreadful work.. i decided to watch B형 남자 친고 and gndjgndjdn dont we all wish we'd meet our destiny by just bumping to each other? but it sucks that up till now, (i think) koreans still judge someone by their blood type. sad, i have no idea which blood group i belong to.

so anyway. was choosing to either watch FO or Miroticon-Seoul on my tv while waiting for my parents to come back home since aqilah was reading books in the room. so i watched FO. funny family is funny.

blabla went out to NYPizza with the family minus abang as usual blabla and went home. its a rainy night.



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haha love su's smile and lol at chun.

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bigeast ily!


so today's Toho-Dome updates! hmm. nothing much but the blue sea surprise went well! the boys were in for it! even yunho commented here and all of them boys were amazed. yoochun was all, "blue-ligh-to~"

WHAI SO QT?

right. so now that TSC is over. the boys got A-Nation next month and hopefully, prepare for a Korean comeback. WAIT NO. i still need the 29th single - Colors. hahaa.

goodnight.
like a melody and harmony in love.


Keep loving, and keep walking,
we've been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings.

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Bring me to TOHODOME prz.
July 4th. isn't that like independence day in US? right, hoped the fireworks were looking good tonight!

so on this day, i marked my calenders. its theeeee day! the day all us cassis and bigeast grlies(and boys) have been waiting for. TOHOSHINKI TSC@TOKYO DOME!

so before going to work, checked for updates and such. the queue for merch and entrance was uber long. madness. and then on MCore, taemin played Yiruma's something river! HE WAS SO COOL. i nvr knew he could play the piano. but nope, not charming at all. not heart-moving either. taemin, please grow up. be a man. haha. im so mean.

rushed home and watched the last episode of ManjaLara. woah. damn drama can. felt like crying when watching Es and Lara separating. NDGKLDKGDS. WHY SO TYPICAL. but when Farizal was trying to woo farah, that was sooo qt. okay i cant wait for ManjaLara 2.



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SO... TOHODOME. i saw the song list and it took me quite a while that they had Xiahtic and Checkmate at TSC until someone pointed out, "Xiahtic? Checkmate? TSC? Errrr...this isn't Miroticon right?" and BOTH SONGS WERE IN JAPPANESZEE! ah. i needa hear it. because, Xiahtic...idk... i dont like it. =/

then JaeChun/Soulmate composed and sang a new song, Colors. ahhh, 29th single prz. it's a very light number. with engrish rap. naiiice. k, needs 320kbps nao kthxbai.

plus a video of the red ocean. damn. its so pretty. its amazing. FIERCE BB FIERCE. everyone putting their sticks in the air. woah. i really need to be part of this excitement. WHEN OH WHEN can i see Changmin live. =(

tmr's the last TSC days. and after that...Korean comeback? or a vacation? bahhhh. we never know. and today's concert dvd is already up for pre-order on dvdheaven. amazing. JUST AMAZING.

AADBSK3, TSC-Dome DVD, Miroticon DVD, albums, singles, magazines, photobooks, merchandise... must get married to a DBSK member. $_$

goodnight!
lalalalalalala~

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Happy Birthday JongHyun!
happy 19th/20th puppy jjong! thank you for being in SHINee and killing noonas/younger grlies with your soulful voice. yeah. how can i forget you. the first dude to appear in NNY mv looking all chill and cool with yr huge headphones. haha!

jonghyun, can i expect alot from your 2nd album and another solo perhaps? hahaha. please learn english or just force Key to teach you. and i miss your tears. i cant wait to see you cry again. hopefully the next time y'all win Mutizen? hahha. actually im just typing a crapload to make it lengthy. haha.

anyway, jonghyun is every girl's dream date. perfect jawline, sharp nose, big eyes, lucious lips, you just wanna dance with him (tho he is vertically challenged). he'll come wearing a nice shirt, and pants and surprise you with flowers. and drive you in a cute yellow beetle.

OMG WHY AM I IMAGINING THINGS.

anyway, my amazing boys, Tohoshinki is going to peform at THEE TOKYO DOME for their last 2 TSC stages! OMGGGG. I. AM. SO. HAPPY. FOR. THEM. (viewers discretion: please expect tears thankiu) their dream stage. every jpop artistes dream stage. wow.

if yoochun cant stop crying at Budoukan...idk how the dome would be like. i saw 1 video of a random jpop artiste, Glay peforming at the Dome. IT WAS HUGE. H-U-G-E. REALLY. NO KIDDING.

dayum. i cant wait for the dvd.

so so so. Mirotic BKK is in June. then after their BKK concert would be their last TSC concert. gosh. and and and Jannah is even considering to go because her sister is so semangat can. I WANT TO GO ALSO. because of her, i've been stalking soompi and dbsg and classified ads for air tix.

brggggh. i think i'll cry if i see changmin.

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Partner.
...because some people want
Kim Jae Joong in their ____.(insert)

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I'm like talking to a brickwall.
this is a random picture of me and aqilah's shoe.

compiled nicely by DBSKlicious.

at a glance, you'd think these 5 were SHINee! changmin makes me wanna wear a washed red pair of jeans. =/
cr: as tagged

how can i miss out our amazing kimkey!
cr: as tagged


omgggg Balloons bossanova version is amazinggg! thanks to bon_zhorr.lj! its so... dreamy. like. the perfect group you wanna see at the beach bar. drinking from a coconut itself. mmm. sounds like a summer dream! * v*

haha. anyway. i cant wait for Tohoshinki's Survivor! and the mv.. i wonder how its gna be like. lol. the voices. very. digital/anime-ish. lol i like the english Brickwall. hoo.

work was okay just now. i thought i saw a rat in the machine. iono. i just kept banging the door and chair. whyy do i have such rotten luck.
speaking of my cousin who's going to korea in like 9523530months....AADBSK3! haha. i. can't. wait. for. AADBSK3. what was in AADBSK1 uh? k. more research to do.

so today's Suqi's and Hydhir's gig at idk where. 2 diffrent places on the same day. im glad i didn't attend either because i wouldn't make up my mind which to attend. lulzzzzz.

today is downloading day. lol. dwld the mirotic concert poster from war_freakz, dwld the ripped mp3s from mirotic concert and hanisenpai sent me dbsk emotes. whee~

so the concert's over and the boys are transforming into Tohoshinki soon. zomg im listening to the concert audio rips. SOOO GOOOOD. omgggg with the fanchants and all. gosh. and changmin's english Upon A Rock(ithinkttsthetitle) solo..gosh. he nailed that freakin high note perfectly! dayum. i feel like. im there. srsly. && XIAHTIC IS AMAZING. ♥

srsly. i said this, and imma say it again: korean fangirls win at fangirllife.

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Can't you see my eyes.
omo. wet changmin. prince in prague scans.
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today. felt so short.

working at WM from 3 to 9 wasn't that bad after all. did my own stuff. managed to write something and slacked. LOL. there wasn't much of a crowd either.

and tmr, im working again. for the first time... im working 3 days straight. TSK?

rushed home with fancams of the Mirotic Concert in mind and also food since i was sooo hungry. tsktsk.

so watched the fancams and i. am. jealous. read a few accounts and. im. even. jealous. to listen to your favorite idol group live on stage, singing a medley. WOAH. no fair. *pouts*

would DBSK still be around if i turn 20? or 25? aha. oh well. i don't think i can wait patiently for them to come to Singapore. ergh.

so kakyam would prolly be going to Korea at the end of the year. and by then. i'd have money. and ask her to get me stuffs. (PS: shid, prz to be prepare list of items sankyu)

okay. imma watch kkotbodanamja now. and imma borrow the Twilight Saga from malah tmr! yipeedoo~

1) changmin can hit the super highhh note.
2) dbsk flies. FO'RREAL!
3) the weather IS SO HOT. nan neomu yeppuh yo
4) i dont work at Cineleisure
5) i keep dancing to Gee
6) i miss SHInee =(
7) but kimkey's pelvicdick thrusts are JJANG!
8) i can't wait for Survivor's release
9) its so hot. srsly.
10) i need a glass of ice tea.

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Mirotic Concert in Seoul 2009
DONGBANGSHINKI YOU SILLY KFJDSKLGHFGSON OF A JNGDJKGHJGD WHY WON'T YOU FKIN COME TO SINGAPORE ANDSTOP MAKING US SUFFER HERE JUST BY LOOKING AT HAPPY FANTAKEN PICTURES AND READ HAPPY SPAZZY FAN ACCOUNTS.
OMGGGG SO MANY GOOD THINGS HAPPENED. LOL. YOOCHUN PLAYED THE PIANO. YOOCHUN WITH WINGS. JUNSU WITH A WITCHSTICK. YUNHO IN YELLOW SKINNIES.

IDK WHATS UP WITH JAEMIN THO. jfkdshfkjd

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HAPPY 21ST SHIM CHANGMIN! ♥
WARNING: THE CONTENT BELOW IS ONLY APPROPRIATE FOR FANS LIKE ME AND HANISENPAI AND OTHER HUMANOIDS WHO APPRECIATE DBSK BOYS LIKE I DO. OTHERWISE, KINDLY EXIT THIS PAGE AND WAIT FOR ANOTHER UPDATE. THANK YOU.

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baby changmin. omg. he loves cats uh. (ah..hug mv...)

high school graduation!

calender boy.

my hp screensaver~

pinky selca changmin!

open concert changmin.

ipod changmin

"NOONA. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT."

"SEAT NO. 34, I SAW THAT!"

bb crying.

CANON+CHANGMIN+PARIS=♥

hug, anyone?

what only this fella.

DBSK HOUSE TOUR!

imagine a blob on her face and insert an arrow with captions,
"INSERT ME HERE"

I SAW WHAT YOU DID. EW.

hungry changmin.

no jae no!

kissy kissy! stupid. its spose to be JaeMin!

zul, jeyd, ama! check out HIS POUTTTTT!!

kissypoo changmin.

mmm. this should be...idk which changmin.

DBSK needs 3M Lintroller

i love his outfit.
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HIS EYES!


min shows his love, like this.

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"ELELELELE"

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its on replay on my hubstation.


aigoo. uri changmin turned 21(22 in KOR) today! gosh. changmin. shim changmin. choikang changmin. max. prince. UFO king.

changmin. why did i ever fall in love with you? love sure is blind.
you just randomly fall in love with some foreign asian dude who stays -053-252394miles away from ya who sings and dances for a living with thousands of fans world wide stalking them 24/7.

so many things happened to changmin in 2008. being in japan for almost, forever. i almost forgot about their existence(k bedek).

and when they had their amazing comeback on 24th Sept but was pushed back to sometime ard 28th Sept. I WAS SO SAD CAN. =( it was an almost perfect bday gift yknw.

how changmin looked so awesome in the water splashing, cloth wrapping and mirotic uniform photoshoot. so yummeh.

those days when you were being attacked by weird china fans. wtf. what do they know eh, bb? >.< fancy throwing a bag at your head supposedly to make you phail even more. T_T

what else. mmm you crying at MKMF. gosh. even i, who was watching that live at 784's gomtv which lagged like jglkjgds felt weird. thank god for youtube. how you showed the other side of Shim Changmin.

times at GDA where you danced awesomely in awful checkered/houndstooth prints and those times in SBS Gayo Daejun where you stripped; only showing us longing fans your flawless back.

haaai.. i can go on and on about this 1 korean dude. sorry but im perhaps crazay in luhv. haha. changminn ah. i cant wish for more already. its good if things stay this way.

hope your work load lessens, you get to spend more time with papa&mama shim and yr sisters. maybe read a book or two and swim all you want. life as an idol sure is tough eh? sad, you chose that path. LOL.

Most importantly. I wanna thank you for being somewhere I could see.
(well, literally)

from a l♥ving Cassiopeia(but i like Bigeast),
사이다.



PS: i got more pics to share actually. but its okay.
anyway, pictures credits to DNBN, tagged and few LJ users. :)
[idon'tclaimthepics]

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You're a bad woman.
this is anita, and the idk how many weeks baby orang utan, ah meng junior.
cr: jeyd.

this is a random, old shot of us duing..bulan puasa in a toilet. T_T


because changmin is agressive like that. ♥


so. i haven't been blogging since SM Town Live.

went through pages and pages at soompi...searched for fancams at yt and.
1) i love it when SHINee dances to Run It
2) my SHINee boys looked so good in their blackwhite LLO outfit! i miss those!
3) we have a new otp people! 2Choi! wonder who? lol. hani-senpai's favorite boys.
because Minho is my secret bias.
4) junsu's dance battle with that ladaay is hot.
5) do not pour water on jonghyun. do. not.
6) key looks amajing in the suit during the rap battle.

i must stop spazzing. i am distracted alrd. hahaa. ok so im done surfing soompi. as scheduled, i must watch BOF at 3am. lol.

work today was mmm. okay. except this fked up dude came thinking he's all smartass and trying to start a bitchfight wimme. lol. in the end. after i did the calculations and stuffs.

I AM SO CORRECT AND I PWN CAN? zzz. so. me, being...duh, me. acted all smartass and bigfk to him and he was like intimidated alrd. HAH. IN YOR FACE YOU WEIRD DUDE!

the rats weren't helping at all. luckily father passed by on the way back from work and got me kitkat and greentea. THANK YOU VERY KAMSAH!

work ended slightly late because some indian dude's thumb can't be read by the reader. geez. thumbs. T_T
im free mother FREE! no work tmr.
PS: gosh. so i read page781 FTi thread. and on the 10th. the boys are going to Japan for a last concert with Won Bin. but they said our lil drummerboy won't be there because of his drama? HAO NAO? hope wonbin says smtg nice abt his leaving.

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